Hey guys, so I only got back into the house about 2 hours ago, and I'm pretty exhausted. Its been a long sort of day, but a nice one nonetheless.
When I got home I started to read a new book from Rachel Schurig, one of my favourite authors, who describes a museum which was made out of an old train station. I basically fell in love with this place, everything about the way it was described seemed so perfect to me, and it hit me that there were so many places just like that, that I wanted to visit.
I've visited a place like that before, an old bookstore that was made out of a train station. A classic one with brick walls and a glass roof. There couldn't have been a place that made me feel more at home, as when you walk through the doors you are greeted with a smell that's a mix of strong coffee and old books. It was heaven to me, and just to give it a little bit of character, there was a tiny train that ran around the track above the bookshelves. Also so many squishy chairs that you could just sit and read in, shelves that were twice your size and an atmosphere that just makes you want to revisit the place again and again.
So I made a bucket list. Some things that are easy to do, some things I've started and some that I can only achieve in time. I've put on there places I want to visit and do, like visit Japan and California, and spend a weekend in London to visit the Natural History Museum and Leadenhall Market. Some of my things on there I don't know how I'll achieve, like trying to do something that's quite scary, or trying something new. These are some things I want out of my life. For a while I wanted to live in America and just move away, but I figured that if I visit America that would settle me, and be able to travel a bit instead. Moving so far away from everything I've known seems to be too big of a step.
But then I decided to make a second list. I made a list of things I've actually done that make me smile, and I seem to have thought of quite a few. Some are emotional, like learning to be more confident and embracing my bizarre personality. Others are things I've actually done that I've been really proud of, like raising some money for charity and that time I managed to get 100 page views on my blog in one day. It might not seem like a lot, but it was completely worth it to me.
It seems that by doing this I have brought myself a lot of hope, making me look forward to the future and what it holds, and it was definitely enough to bring me out of the January and February rut I seemed to have myself in. Let's see what the future brings.
Keep smiling! - x
