Too Late

So here it is, I am tired, so tired I can feel my eyes drooping. I don't want to go to sleep, I'm too tired to fall asleep if that makes sense.

Over the past week I've been a bit off, felt a bit ill but still got stuff done and I'm proud of myself for that. Every time I've been knocked down I've picked myself back up straight away, working on my anxiety by telling myself that something is fine after I've checked it once. I shouldn't need to go and check it.

Yet it hasn't done all that much for my overall self esteem, and if I'm honest, after not feeling too well my mood is a little bit low too. I find myself unable to concentrate or come up with a good idea for anything.

I tried going back to my writing last night and spent hours writing stuff that is either too fast paced or too boring.

I'm hoping to feel better soon anyway. I just need to get on with it. I need a bit of a break actually from everything... A time where I can just stop and chill out...

I will continue to write as I can and I will excel when my time comes. I won't forget about my blog, I just haven't got so much time right now. My blog means the world to me. It's not something I would give up easy.

*sigh*

- Steph.

I'm Still Here

Hi guys, I know it's been a while, but you have to understand it has been a really busy week for me, not only that, but my mood has kind of been low as well, mostly when I am on my own... I've looked angry, storming through the town to get lunch, scowling with my headphones turned up to full blast. It's the type of mood I'm in when I embrace the screams of Corey Taylor from Slipknot and the amazing harmonies from Fall Out Boy. So as you can tell, it hasn't been all that good of a week.

Here's to hoping that will get better.

I am aware over the last week or so people have been looking on my page, viewing my blog and there has been nothing new on there. I apologise for that. I'll never get so busy or lost that I will forget about my blog, and I am still always looking for new things to post. I know I promised that I would blog every few days, but I'm just getting through this rough time and hopefully I'll be back as soon as possible to continue on as soon as possible.

I'm still here, completely yours, I won't be forgetting any time soon.

I just thought I would give you all an update, because my blog is looking emptier than a bag of sweets on a Saturday night in my possession.

If you do want to hear from me more often then follow me on twitter, I post silly little things that sometimes don't make any sense but I like to think I make someone laugh. If i can't make you laugh then I make myself laugh, and that's what's important, right?

My Twitter : @steo96

The Tales of Me, Myself and Procrastination.

Good evening everybody!

Sorry it's been a while since I've posted, but it's been quite a busy week for me and I haven't been on my laptop all that much. 

One thing I am very happy about (some of my Twitter followers would know) is that I am finally getting back into my personal creative writing. This is amazing, I've had some new ideas, and collaborated them with an older idea and now I can't wait to keep on writing whenever I am away from my computer. 

The only issue is procrastination. I keep getting distracted by YouTube videos, or I'll see something amusing posted online somewhere and sit and laugh at that for a while. Yes, it's all great, but I feel in a way as if it is holding me back. I see other people's work and begin to doubt myself, then before I know it all my work I was doing for the last hour is gone, and I feel as if I have to begin it again because it doesn't sound right.

Don't be someone like me, because literally, all the work probably needs is a little bit changing to make it completely perfect for you. All you have to do is believe in yourself (that sounds really cliche, but it's true). 

This afternoon, I have gone back to the work I began at the start of the year and began working on it again. It's honestly becoming a lot of fun, and I've had a lot of fun doing the research for it, for some of the plot points. Also, another thing is that I've been using Pinterest for some of my planning, looking for the different outfits that the characters can wear and what kind of settings I could use. It's been fantastic and I'm only just getting started. 

Don't let other people's work get to you. If you want your work to be unique, it has to come from you and only you. You don't need to compare your work to anyone else's because it is one of a kind. Never listen to those who try to compare you to someone else. Be spontaneous, be different, be unique and love every moment of what you do. Life wouldn't be worth living otherwise, would it?

Music

Good morning everybody! Or afternoon / evening depending on where you are in the world!

Today, I wanted to write about music. Music has always meant a lot to me, no matter what genre it is, and I listen to a variety of different genres, each just as unique as the others.

I've been trying to stop pressing the 'skip' button when I'm listening to my music because I find I'm missing out on songs, I'll put them on my phone, new ones just bought that I haven't heard before, and end up not listening to them for weeks.

One thing you will find about me if you ever see me in person, is that I am often looking foe new bands and new songs to listen to, and I love getting into new things. Just a few weeks ago I was introduced to the Wombats (who I love).

But when I say I love different genres, I like a bit of all of them. I like only some of the new stuff, like Olly Murs and other artists who have let out new songs lately... (I don't know some names but I like the song when it comes on the radio). Of course I like (as I've mentioned before) different bands from rock, metal and alternative reaching from Slipknot to Falling in Reverse, to Fall Out Boy, to My Chemical Romance. I like a lot of different bands from those particular genres. And I also like some stuff from Rap (I used to be a huge Eminem fan.)

I also like piano music and classical music, as it's very calming in the evening times.

Anyway, I think I've rambled enough for one day. Will be back here soon.

Relaxing Night

Good evening my fellow people, sorry it's been a week since I last posted. I've had such a busy week. But here I am, having no plans for a whole week. 

So now you're stuck with me. 

Let's hope none of you are crying yet. 

Let's get back to business, or the real reason I am here. I'm here, as always to share my oh-so-interesting view on life in general, and of course my own life. So here goes. Life, my friends, is good. 

In fact, I would go to say life is very good for me right now. This evening I have had a fantastic night, due to going to a little get together with some lovely friends, and I've had a lovely evening and got to know some people who I have never met before. Now it's relaxing time. 

I'm doing what I want to do now. So I've done some writing so far on something I'm working on, had a go on Pintrest, which I am fairly new to, and just chilled with a cup of coffee and this is how I like it. For the first time in a while I am beginning to get a clear head and this is what life is about, right? Enjoying yourself. 

I've become more and more determined over the last few weeks, despite my degenerating self confidence (of which I am working on) and am starting to feel better, starting to feel a bit more me again. 

This is how I like to live my life (that's an old photo there...) But none the less, this is it. I like to live a calm life, but I am determined that when I get older, I'll be the exact person who I want to be. I'm getting there, slowly but surely. I can see the top, and I'm never going to fall. 

You guys need to know that you can live your life the way you want to live it. It's your choice, nobody else's. If you want to travel the world, then go and have an adventure. If you want a settled life and a family, then go for it and be happy. If you want to be happy, then let yourself. Never be ashamed to do what's right for you. I know that I am, and it's making me the happiest I've ever been. I've somehow always felt like something was missing, and now I kinda know what it is, and what it means. Now I'm 100% over the moon because I have everything I need in life right now. 

I have no reason to be sad, so all I can do is smile. I hope that you too, can one day feel like I do, because this feeling is more than words can explain. You'll know too one day. Things can only get better, right?