Too Late

So here it is, I am tired, so tired I can feel my eyes drooping. I don't want to go to sleep, I'm too tired to fall asleep if that makes sense.

Over the past week I've been a bit off, felt a bit ill but still got stuff done and I'm proud of myself for that. Every time I've been knocked down I've picked myself back up straight away, working on my anxiety by telling myself that something is fine after I've checked it once. I shouldn't need to go and check it.

Yet it hasn't done all that much for my overall self esteem, and if I'm honest, after not feeling too well my mood is a little bit low too. I find myself unable to concentrate or come up with a good idea for anything.

I tried going back to my writing last night and spent hours writing stuff that is either too fast paced or too boring.

I'm hoping to feel better soon anyway. I just need to get on with it. I need a bit of a break actually from everything... A time where I can just stop and chill out...

I will continue to write as I can and I will excel when my time comes. I won't forget about my blog, I just haven't got so much time right now. My blog means the world to me. It's not something I would give up easy.

*sigh*

- Steph.