Okay guys. So weird title, yes? True it makes no logical sense, but to me it defines how I feel right now.
I have a few main worries, and while I am quite a worrying person, some really stand out from the rest. One nagging thing can bring me down in ways you can't imagine in the most inappropriate places. Last night I went to a party and got stressed out about something that isn't happening for a month. A MONTH. AT A PARTY. This is usually how it goes for me, and it continues to bog me down again and again in the most random of places, even keeping me up at night if I begin to think about it at that point.
So I'm fighting my anxiety at the moment in the only way how, I try to reason with myself. Nothing I worry about will be the end of the world, nothing I do is going to effect the way the world works, its just a nagging fear tugging away at my brain. So with everything I try to worry about, I reason with myself, like I think "well this will happen if this happens, but this can't happen so stop worrying". Sometimes my method works, and this time it is. I don't have the time or the effort to be worrying about things I don't have to think about until next weekend, or next month.
I will smile and I will get through it. At the moment I am not anxious. I am not worrying because I know that I can do this. It's not a once in a lifetime, so why worry now, right?
No, I don't have time. I'm just going to sit here on my bed and watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, eat my gingerbread popcorn (it's limited edition my mam bought me and frankly I'm a little bit sceptical) and drink my gingerbread latte. See you all again soon!
- Steph x
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