My Life And What I Want It To Be

Okay, so as a lot of you know, I am very passionate in what I believe in. I believe that a person's hopes and dreams are what make them who they are. 

If someone asked me what the meaning of life was, I wouldn't really know what to tell them. I would say, be who you are because that is all that matters, be loyal to those you love and for goodness sake, remember to live life to the very full. 

Now, I am just a teenage girl living the average life here in the UK. I want to share something with all of you today. 

I live in a town and a place where everything is always the same, the weather is either good or it's not. More often it isn't.  Thing is, I know what to expect through my day, how to handle things the way I have to every single day. I make sure that I am well prepared for the day ahead of me and mentally planmy day out when I get up in the morning. But there has to be more to life than this... I don't want to live with my own system, all cooped up in this town. I want to go out, travel and inspire as I make my way along. Obviously one day I want to get married and have children and settle down, but I want to do something first. 

I play my life safely, but anxiety and stress is an easy thing to pull you back down, and when you struggle to get something out of your head, thats the worst. 

Right now, picture this. You're standing on the edge of a cliff, the air is clean and fresh, the sun is just setting and the waves crash below you. How do you feel standing there? It seems to be one of the most beautiful sights in the world... its the sort of things I want to see, the things I want to feel. 

These are a few things I really want out of life.

1. To be a writer and to show everyone the power and impact that words really have on a oerson. To make them feel overwhelmed by the power of words and the love that I send out to everyone with every word that I write. 

2. To see parts of the world, to go to another place just for a little while, just to see what it is like, and maybe even make some friends along the way. 

3. Travel to California. At first it was because of all the exciting people there, like all my favourite celebrities and stuff, but the more books I read set in America, and the more films I watch and the things that I see on the internet just intrigue me more and more. I know most of it is not real, but I just want to see.

4. When I finally settle down and find a real place to live, have a room where Iwill do my writing and a little desk, a bookcase full of hundreds of books, and a wall full of photographs that I took along the way, through my life. The wall of photos that made me the person I am.

I want to do this all so badly it hurts, but my future has to hold more than what I am doing now, even if I love the life I lead, the things I do and the people I love.  I just want to live, and I'm never going to give up on my dreams.