Being Lighthearted

One of my favourite things about myself is the ability I have to change my emotion relatively quickly. I can do this with my writing, reading or listening to music, or purely just talking to someone nice. 

When I read or write, my heart and brain flutter together restlessly, causing the cogs in my brain to grind and splutter, creating something out of the ordinary. An image, a single image. That's what I base my work from, because this one image never goes away.

When I listen to my music, sometimes it's like something inside me just snaps. It just goes and then I'm here, flowing along with the music, following every note and following every word they sing to me. Some bands and artists make me think, make me want to dance, love, cry and sing all at the same time. They make me want to show emotion and some of the time, when I tell people the bands I like, they seem to disagree with some of the things I say about them. 

One example, which happened in high school and mentioned in another blog post I believe, a lot of people basically insinuated that the music I listened to was meaningless. Bearing in mind at this point I was an avid listener of bands such as Slipknot and Avenged Sevenfold. Someone once told me that they couldn't hear what they were saying and it was just screaming all the time. They clearly have never heard of 'Snuff' by Slipknot and so many Avenged Sevenfold songs... But the songs showed sometimes how I had felt. I was angry at my peers, always wanting to keep myself tucked away from them. I was never really one with the popular crowds, I felt like I was the one sorting out arguments between friends and other peers. I liked to make sure everything was okay between people. 

I thought that was friendship. 

I was wrong. I began really living my life to the full when I left sixth form, when I became creative and different. I began to change my own style and experiment with what made me feel happy. My relationships with my peers and my friends improved. I got a hell of a lot happier than I was back then. Let's just say that when people say some of your friends from school won't stick around, a lot of the time they're right. 

I improved when I left sixth form because it wasn't for me, by the way. Nothing was really all that bad, I just had a bad habit of overworking myself and not getting enough sleep. 

My point is, you need to be doing things because they make you happy. I'm not saying don't help people if you get the chance, but make sure that you are happy in the process. Don't just spend a chunk of your life doing something that makes you unhappy. 

In your life you need to be happy, you need to be confident, you need to be responsible, you need to smile. You need to smile, because when you smile, your smile is the light shining through the darkness of the world. 

Always believe that.