Nonsense

I've got something on my mind, which is the exact reason why I am still awake, lying in the dark, typing nonsense into my phone, hoping someone will understand me.

My eyes are coaxing me to sleep, despite my brain being more awake than ever. I believe in myself, I believe I could do anything if I wasn't so gosh darn tired.

I'm thinking about my writing [oh no here I go with the writing again, I know, it's a habit I'm sorry :) ] anyway, I have some amazing ideas that I feel are going to burst out of me. I know nothing of the plot at hand of my writing, I don't even know the names of the characters or where it is set, but I've already started writing it all in my head. I can see it, and that's what makes me feel so unique.

I know nothing about this, and yet I see the scene playing out in front of me. I see all the characters and what they look like, I see the features of the person, I see the location and everything around. I can look around the room and examine the features up close. I can play, fast forward and rewind, even pause the time to get a better look and develop the idea more.

Please don't think of me as stupid or immature or something like that, but I wish I could understand it all. Yet I find myself doing it again and again every night, imagining, letting my mind wander, and never forgetting the things I see when I do see them. How else am I supposed to be inspired?