#embracethecrazylife

I should be in bed right now, really, but I've had this creative little burst of energy that can't be held inside the small fragment of me that is my brain. I say 'small fragment', however, my brain holds no comparison to my mind. My brain is the size of a pea to my mind, my imagination. Imagination comes from the soul, not from the way one thinks and perceives the world.

One of my more recent posts was about people in their general life, people who can walk past each other without even looking their way, or if they do, it's rare that people would say anything to the person, and they have drifted through your life before you even realise it.

I've noticed that not everything I thought about the world was what it seemed to be, and that people are actually very nice. I used to be very self conscious, and I was always afraid of what people would think of the person that I was. So, what's changed?

In January, a lot of things changed for me, and over the Christmas period I began to use twitter more. Before I knew it was gaining about 5-10 followers a day. I couldn't believe it! I never thought people would care so much for the rambles of an 18 year old girl who was a bit weird and was a bit of an outcast. On January 18th, I created my blog, and I began to share my thoughts with the world. I spoke out more for what I believed in. The more I blogged, the more confident I became in myself, in the person I had became. Some people told me they were enjoying my blog, people who I had never physically met before shared my blog with their friends and followers on Twitter. I was so excited, because it was a place that was my own, where I didn't have to worry about what people would say and if someone I used to know from school read it and judged me, because I became the person I am now. I haven't smiled so much in a year. So in 2 months and 3 days time I would've been blogging for a year. That's crazy to me.

When I say things were changing, they were changing in small ways. Before I knew it I had made more friends and learned to trust more. I have friends on Twitter who live far away, but still consider me to be a friend. A lot of it has calmed down now, but I wish in a way it hadn't, and hopefully when I'm not too busy I will be able to tweet more often, and blog more often. (Not Facebook, I barely use it honestly).

But for now, I'm going to live, and I'm going to smile, and I'm going to embrace every moment, and every second of joy. Every time the wind blows my hair into my face, every time my cat snores loudly at the end of my bed, every drop of rain that falls on me... I'll smile. Life is crazy, it's time to embrace that.

#embracethecrazylife