Growing Up

I had a strange feeling yesterday, and it's been on my mind all night and all day. I realised that I'm no longer a kid.

I know, it's a bit late of a realisation.

But it's like... I'm no longer at school, I've had a boyfriend for nearly 4 and a half years, I've started to understand the world a lot better now. It's crazy. The realisation that I'm nearly at that point where I could move in with my boyfriend or my friends, the fact that one of my friends is going to Uni soon, the fact that I'm working hard to get to a place that I want to be.

Things seem to be so much easier nowadays. I mean, at school I could barely see this far ahead of life, I had no plan, I was just gonna 'ride the wave' some would say, and now I make plans for myself and make sure they're realistic and accomplishable.

It's hard to realise that when I'm just settling down, that things have been changing more than ever. Things are always changing, and frankly I quite like it, means I'm not stuck in a rut.

But yeah. I'm growing up. Argh.

Truthfully though, I don't think I'll ever ACTUALLY grow up. I'm going to live life to the full, and smile forever. And yes. I'm going to RUN to the big rollercoasters with my friends at theme parks, sit on the swings at parks and talk, go to the cinema to see animations and never forget the millions of things that make me smile.