The Common Issues of a Modern Day Blogger

Sometimes these blogs can be difficult to write. 

As some of you know, writing has been a dream job for me since I was about 8 years old. It's something I've always wanted to pursue. 

My issue is, I never have the confidence to show my writing to the world, or in some cases to the people I trust more than anyone in the world. I know I have some good ideas, how I show them is another story. 

One of my worst habits is writing something out, re-reading it and deciding I don't like it, and deleting it altogether. I then decide I can't write at that moment and putting my laptop down and I won't pick it back up for hours or sometimes days. It's exhausting to think about, as I know I can do it, but I don't put faith in myself to go through with the stories I tell. 

So many ideas have gone rogue now, lost in the back of my brain. I hate that in some cases I will never be able to get them back. 

So sometimes blogging seems like a good way to go. I can write whatever is on my mind and I know that some of you will relate. If you don't, well I guess you might relate to some of the others. Little snippets of my imagination or life for people to see and read. Little things about me that I feel I can't express without words on paper or on a screen. 

I love to blog. I really do. I love to see how many people stop to read them, and I love to write them. That's the hard part. 

Sometimes I'm at loss of what to write about. Sometimes I get inspiration from the rain, or falling leaves, or the blossom in the spring. Sometimes I want to express how I feel about the beauty of the stars, or the boring days where nothing really happens or how sometimes I'm so tired but my brain is too wired to sleep. 

Sometimes I want to write about how peaceful someone looks when they fall asleep, how I feel when I get to the beach near where I was born and feel the sand in between my toes, or how angry I am at something that's happened against me in the world. 

Getting the words out seems to be so difficult. I want to get it right, make it interesting or inspiring. Somehow getting the words out seems to be so... final. Once my opinion is out would there be any way to take it back if it were to ever change? 

Maybe. 

Maybe not.