How I came to Start My Own Blog

I've never been someone to always want to write a blog. In fact I just had the idea one day, I was looking up websites where you could publish your own stories, chapters at a time. After being unsuccessful, I decided I would begin a blog. 

But why would anyone want to listen to the words of an 18 year old girl?

I'll tell you why. 
Words are powerful things, just one sentence can make you rethink every little decision you ever made. One word can mean so much to you, make you think back to your childhood years, hiding from your friends, playing on the streets and running away from the imaginary dragons only you and your friends could see. 

When I write, I don't do it to grab attention from anyone, I do it because it's my passion. It's one of my favourite things to do. I'm always scared to let people who I know read what I write. This is why I don't personally share my blog on Facebook, or any social networks where many people know who I really am. 

I write this blog purely for people to know the different passions that I am unable to express in person. 

If you are a stranger to me, I am eager to get to know you, but I am incredibly shy. I try to make myself look outspoken and kind to others but inside I just want to run and hide, even though I always made new friends as a kid. The way that I am now is a mix of pacing myself to get to know someone, and being to anxious to let the real me out. It sucks, it really does. I find it difficult to describe my feelings to a stranger without going to deep into who I am, and understandably, if you are a stranger to me, I will be a little bit reluctant to do so. 

If you are my friend, a lot of the time, being as silly as I can be, I will laugh a lot or have deep convorsations, but I am constantly anxious to make sure that I don't bore anyone. Seriously, it can suck. 

Here on this blog, I hope to share some deep thoughts, and although you can't speak to me in person, it makes me feel a little bit better about sharing my thoughts. 

I hope you, as a person, are someone I can speak to with great confidence. This way I can share without being scared of someone's opinion. It's easy to see that you're boring someone in person, but with this blog, if I do bore you, it's easy to just press the 'x' button at the top of your browser. 

I hope this isn't the case, but if anything I say does speak out to anyone, however little the feeling may be, I would love to know about it. 

Until next time.