Friday, 27 February 2015

My Midnight Blog

Ah, nothing like a good cup of tea and a good book at the end of a long day. It's Friday everybody! Time to celebrate I assume! However if you are reading this on a good old Friday night you mustn't have a lot to do.

Just kidding, I'm glad you're joining me on this fine evening.

 Today has been a great day for me, for the first time in ages I could walk outside only wearing a hoodie over my bare arms and smile, not feeling cold and listening to the best and happiest music my phone has to offer me.

It brought a smile to my face knowing how perfectly things fixed themselves. This time last year I was at sixth form, a worry box, always self conscious and late to leave the house. Worrying if I had left my straighteners plugged in or something like that.

Now that I've moved on from that state, I can only remind myself of one time which made me realise how wrong everything had gotten.

I was standing in the line to get a carvery with my mum and a few others when she stopped and smiled at me. "you've got the colour back to your cheeks now you've left. You looked a little grey for a while."

I just couldn't picture it - yet it had been so obvious in front of the mirror whenever I looked at myself. I was shocked, it made me realise just how bad everything had gotten, how wrong I could be with the direction I was going towards. Getting way too stressed with my common worries and pile them up with trying to remember 50 gazillion names for an exam can really tire you out. I just wish I'd seen how bad I was.

Now that I have my feet firmly on the ground again I can certainly say that I am 100% better and I want to say thank you to the people who have supported me for who I am, those who do and those who will.

Yes, its cheesy.

But that's just me.

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