My Problem

I suppose this is the person I will always be. I try hard to stop people from feeling sad, insignificant, unimportant. I try to make people feel loved. I hope it works - I really do. 

I don't take my own advice all the time, and when I feel like this, I usually try to be alone. I quite like being alone you see, but I find I begin to think about things that upset me, or make me sad or angry in any way. I begin to overthink things from my life. I try to change the way that others see things, so that maybe the world would be a better place, where everyone would smile and be happy. 

I write because it makes me feel happy, and to be honest there isn't a lot I want in this world. I don't want to be hugely famous or anything like that, I blog because that is what I love, and what I love is trying to make everybody else happy. 

A few family members and friends have commented on my blog - telling me that it's interesting and parts made them smile, that they become engrossed in them and read more than they intended. I don't think a lot of people know how deep this runs through me. 

Here it is. I share my thoughts and my feelings on my blog. I tell you all how I've felt before, and what you need to do to avoid feeling insignificant. I know a lot of people do sometimes... but that's life right?

The thing about the thoughts though, they come deep from my very soul. I say I want a world of people smiling because I can see it. Every day so many people walking around who smile. They smile and it's bloody gorgeous, every last smile I see. Just a smile from a stranger can make me happy, I've said that before. The world should never be a strange, scary or intimidating place, and we're all here to live our lives the way we set them out to be. Nobody in this world is unimportant. Every person I see holds a place inside my memory, and in so many others. 

We all live in this world together. Look how far we've come, with technology, with the law system. Look at what we have developed for crying out loud. Our knowledge base is advanced. Just look at the stuff we all created. 

I'm saying all this because I believe that there are few people in this world who I can say truly understand me, the person that I am, and who I want to be. Some people understand me better than I understand myself. There have been a million times when I want to smile, laugh, cry or fall apart. I live my life in happiness, and sadness... but I live my life as me. 

I love every aspect of my life, I wouldn't change it for the world. I love each place, each room, each person, each soul, each heart. I love you. 

Know that those last words will never, EVER, be meaningless to a person like me.